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Accelerator ([personal profile] levelshift) wrote2024-04-26 02:03 pm

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cw: suicide talk

[personal profile] abstractly 2024-11-08 04:18 am (UTC)(link)
( when he touches her shoulder, she lifts her head in alert, an instant flinch and her eyes widen as she looks at him. it's not the fact that he touched her, it's more so that she's realizing the situation of how she's been crying, and how her cheeks are stained by her own tears. 37's eyes are blurry, they burn, but her smile is weak, and it trembles as she attempts to show how grateful she is—

...

it falls as easy as it comes, her eyes soon fall too from no longer looking at accelerator to down at her hands. she lifts it to rest one hand over his own, the touch lingers in a way to reassure him in a different way if her smile is unable to cover it. it's funny, she's crying over her friends that are long gone, and even though accelerator said he would help her before... maybe she should be grateful they're not friends like he said... that makes it so she has nothing to lose.

what can you lose that you never had? )


I'm sorry...

( she whispers, shaking her head and using one hand to wipe away at her eyes to dry them. it doesn't work so much, but she's already pushing herself up from the couch so accelerator's hand is removed from her shoulder.

part of her wishes that she didn't have to get up, a comforting hand does a lot, it assisted in grounding her... making her realize that if she wants to do these things then she can't sit here and cry. she wants to, this isn't something he has to deal with because in the end he's only a stranger who is living in a peculiar world much like she is. )


I should go... I didn't mean... ( that seems to be the right choice, she won't put him in this position... she'll find somewhere to cry and she'll think these things over. accelerator has been through his own ups and downs, but he isn't sitting here crying, so... it feels wrong to do this. ) Thank you... for helping me with...

( she tilts her head to indicate the earpiece as she takes a step back, then another so she can properly go to the door. )
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cw: suicide talk, she doesn't deserve it... + great thread wonderful end

[personal profile] abstractly 2024-11-08 09:46 pm (UTC)(link)
( the door, oh, she could if she remembers, but she feels a little dizzy at this point as she makes her way to the door. her eyes fall to the knob to turn, another audible sniffle as she turns it. )

I- I'll try my best.

( it comes out as a mumble that she can't quite promise, if anything, she wants to sit in her room and think about if there's something wrong with her. she should be used to this feeling that those taken away by the emanation are in a happier place, that's how she should feel...and yet, apeiron did speak up on her doubts.

her heart sinks a little more as she shakes her head to try and get rid of it.

not now, not right now. her sleeve lifts to her face to wipe away the tears from her face knowing she can't return home to 6 like this. it's not his place to even ask what's wrong, but if he knows, then he'll be able to tell what the issue is. she won't let him think she's weak or will make mistakes or anything... part of her wishes she could have done that for accelerator too... but he knows that she too struggles. staring at the door, she manages to turn around just a little to acknowledge accelerator one last time— blue meets red. )


Um... Goodbye.

( she doesn't wait for a response, she doesn't really want one, but she does leave with the door shutting behind her. )