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cw: suicide talk; future goals: give 37 a hug

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[There's still an uncomfortable knot in his stomach when 37 settles her hand atop is. As far as he can tell he isn't making things any worse, which is... good? Is any of this good? It doesn't feel like it is. She deserves a hell of a lot more than some monster trying to help her through this. She especially shouldn't be apologizing to him.

When 37 stands Accelerator lets his hand drop.

He gives her a small shrug. Normally he'd follow up with something like "whatever" or "it's not a big deal," some dismissive statement that makes him look indifferent. Except this was a big deal, and Accelerator doesn't want to downplay what happened to her and what she's still going through.]

Next time don't go around knocking on windows. You can use the door. Alright?

[That he can easily offer. He's used to Last Order and Qliphah getting in his space, and Asuka shows up to hang out pretty often, so he doesn't mind at all if 37 does the same. It'd be better for her if she did, instead of shutting herself away alone.]

cw: suicide talk, she doesn't deserve it... + great thread wonderful end

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( the door, oh, she could if she remembers, but she feels a little dizzy at this point as she makes her way to the door. her eyes fall to the knob to turn, another audible sniffle as she turns it. )

I- I'll try my best.

( it comes out as a mumble that she can't quite promise, if anything, she wants to sit in her room and think about if there's something wrong with her. she should be used to this feeling that those taken away by the emanation are in a happier place, that's how she should feel...and yet, apeiron did speak up on her doubts.

her heart sinks a little more as she shakes her head to try and get rid of it.

not now, not right now. her sleeve lifts to her face to wipe away the tears from her face knowing she can't return home to 6 like this. it's not his place to even ask what's wrong, but if he knows, then he'll be able to tell what the issue is. she won't let him think she's weak or will make mistakes or anything... part of her wishes she could have done that for accelerator too... but he knows that she too struggles. staring at the door, she manages to turn around just a little to acknowledge accelerator one last time— blue meets red. )

Um... Goodbye.

( she doesn't wait for a response, she doesn't really want one, but she does leave with the door shutting behind her. )