[This is a full-on hug, and while a very small part of Accelerator would like to return it he can't bring himself to do that. It's this horrible contradiction of something he feels like he desperately needs, and something he's incredibly uncomfortable with. The best he can do is shift until he's pretty much sagging against Jason.
Given how little Accelerator likes touching people in general, it's a big step for him. He knows the kinds of things Jason has been through, he trusts him immensely. That Jason hasn't just rejected him after learning about the Sisters has given him another anchor - an adult, this time - that he can cling to, even though he's still sure he doesn't deserve any of this.
He closes his eyes, his voice quiet but flat.]
I don't know if I can.
[Really, it'd be flat-out denial if he thought he could. You don't get punched out by some random normie and then spend a full week of your life obsessed and having a complete existential crisis over it and also think you're capable of moving forward. You certainly don't kill over ten thousand innocent girls and not have it consume your thoughts every single day.]
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Given how little Accelerator likes touching people in general, it's a big step for him. He knows the kinds of things Jason has been through, he trusts him immensely. That Jason hasn't just rejected him after learning about the Sisters has given him another anchor - an adult, this time - that he can cling to, even though he's still sure he doesn't deserve any of this.
He closes his eyes, his voice quiet but flat.]
I don't know if I can.
[Really, it'd be flat-out denial if he thought he could. You don't get punched out by some random normie and then spend a full week of your life obsessed and having a complete existential crisis over it and also think you're capable of moving forward. You certainly don't kill over ten thousand innocent girls and not have it consume your thoughts every single day.]