[Accelerator sorely wants to believe that, doesn't he? That he could just exist as himself, flaws and all, and it's be enough for Harold and John. But there's only a few people in his life where that's ever been the case, so it's hard for him to believe. And on top of that, even if it's true then that means he really did something horrible for no good reason at all. If anything, he had been using Harold and John as an excuse.
That makes him feel sick. Maybe it's easier to just assume John is only trying to be nice.]
It felt like the right thing to do at the time. That's all.
[Accelerator is mumbling that in response, more uncertain than reassured.]
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[Accelerator sorely wants to believe that, doesn't he? That he could just exist as himself, flaws and all, and it's be enough for Harold and John. But there's only a few people in his life where that's ever been the case, so it's hard for him to believe. And on top of that, even if it's true then that means he really did something horrible for no good reason at all. If anything, he had been using Harold and John as an excuse.
That makes him feel sick. Maybe it's easier to just assume John is only trying to be nice.]
It felt like the right thing to do at the time. That's all.
[Accelerator is mumbling that in response, more uncertain than reassured.]