[This hurts. Jason is putting so much trust in him that he doesn't deserve, and he's realizing with a sinking feeling that it's his own fault. He hasn't been honest with him, so what the hell can he expect? Of course Jason is going to think he's better than he really is when he doesn't know about the Level 6 Shift experiment and the Sisters.
He says he gets it, and Accelerator wants that to be true. But it isn't. The truth is that whatever Jason thinks he's done, the reality is a thousand times worse.
He grits his teeth, a growl in his voice, because whenever he lets himself get emotional it's always anger that comes out first, even if that isn't exactly what he's feeling.]
No, it doesn't. That'd mean I'm a... goddamnit, that I'm a fucking victim, right? And I'm not that.
[He can't be. If he starts seeing himself like that, then he'll be devaluing the Sisters and what they went through. What he did to them. Even though this is a phone call he's shaking his head, sounding tense.]
You don't know what I've done. You wouldn't be saying any of that shit if you did.
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He says he gets it, and Accelerator wants that to be true. But it isn't. The truth is that whatever Jason thinks he's done, the reality is a thousand times worse.
He grits his teeth, a growl in his voice, because whenever he lets himself get emotional it's always anger that comes out first, even if that isn't exactly what he's feeling.]
No, it doesn't. That'd mean I'm a... goddamnit, that I'm a fucking victim, right? And I'm not that.
[He can't be. If he starts seeing himself like that, then he'll be devaluing the Sisters and what they went through. What he did to them. Even though this is a phone call he's shaking his head, sounding tense.]
You don't know what I've done. You wouldn't be saying any of that shit if you did.