[This isn't what he wants to hear.

Of course, every child likes hearing when someone tells them a good kid, regardless of whether they are or not. Accelerator is not exception - he's been praised by fearful scientists for the strength of his ability, but he's rarely ever been told he's a good kid. There's a small part of him that likes it, which is the problem.

He knows he isn't good. He knows he shouldn't like being called good. He knows he's basically lying to Jason by withholding information from him.

He slumps on the couch, burying his face in his hand. The worst part of this is that Jason doesn't even sound angry. It would be a lot easier if he was.]

You're right, I've done a lot of really fucked up stuff. Enough that I know there's no way I can ever make up for it.

[He's utterly miserable, and he's reminded of what Yoshikawa had called him out on, that it's always been easier for him to reject good will from others because accepting it is too frightening.]

I'm not good. I did all of it willingly, too, so you're wrong when you say it isn't my fault. I'm a fucking monster and you can't pretend otherwise.